Choice

     Today was a beautiful day. It was rainy and cold and cloudy but somehow everything was alive. Since it was a Saturday, I'm usually working but I had off so I was on my own schedule. The night before, I told myself I was going to read 5 chapters of the Bible every hour till dinner. If I have a goal like that the night before...I (usually) end up doing it. I could choose to lie around but what a waste of a day! I choose to delve into learning and whoa I just learned again today: God is good. Reading through Leviticus than Numbers, I'm so thankful for Jesus. So glad we don't have to memorize those laws or be unclean constantly.

     The nice thing about going over the Bible in a huge chunk is that you see the repetition. I noticed that whenever the Israelites came to Moses with a question, he always inquired of God FIRST. God is always with us so we can follow Moses' example of always looking to God first. Often we don't do and when that happens, things can go wrong fast. It's good to be in prayer about certain things you're unsure of. If you don't know, God has an answer! You choose in the end, but God allows certain people/events to come into your life to sway you in the direction He has for you. The big word is CHOICE. God gave us free will. Time and time again the Israelites complain and time and time again they are struck down. Will they ever learn? we think. The Israelites in the wilderness is only a tiny picture of the whole story of God's love and faithfulness. And the coolest thing ever is that we copy that story with our own creative stories. The Bible is a model for the shortened format of struggle/climax/resolution.

     I love stories. I love to hear people's stories about how they came to know God (testimonies). I love my mom telling funny stories of the past. I love fantasy books that pull you into a whole new world of possibilities. I've tried to write my own books but they usually don't have an ending. I have too many ideas! I'm in awe that God picked one overarching story for us of the fall, a Saviour, and hope and then is weaving all our stories together throughout generations with the messy word of choice mixed into there. To choose between right and wrong.

The story of today was one little droplet to add to my own life of stories. I went for a walk. Mom had told me of a place in our marsh that was clear enough to ice skate. It's supposed to be cold next week? We'll see. Anyway, God gave me so many birds on my walk. What I mean by that - they were everywhere! I delighted in their calls and the ability to name them. I saw a kingfisher, red tailed hawk, towhee, scrub jay, stellar jay, chickadees, song sparrow, nuthatches, and a downy woodpecker. I made the choice to walk in the rain and cold. I didn't like my choice at first. But through Mom's nudging and my knowing once-I-get-out-there-I-love-it, I chose to go. Think of all the sights I would have missed. My ears hurt afterward from the wind but it was worth it. Birds now and ice skating in the future. Hope.

" Consequences are bound to the choices you make. You can have your choice but you cannot choose the consequences." -Ravi Zacharias 

Step by Step

     Life is a busy thing. I used to think I was so busy back when I was 3. Mom had me reading Little House in the Prairie and speaking Spanish numbers and signing the alphabet by the time I turned 4. I knew my address, phone number, and could tell you how good frosting tastes depending on how much milk you add. From there, Mom eased off and I started violin at 5 and piano at 6. Harp I couldn't start till I turned 10 because my fingers were too small. I got baptized at 12 and went on a mission trip at 14 which started a chain of one mission trip a year for the past 5 years now. Not because I had to but because the opportunity presented itself, each time in a different way. God provides opportunities constantly. We just have to decide whether to take that step.

     When I came back from Capernwray, end of June, I had almost 3 months of total rest. It was uncanny. I came back ready to begin life again and God put me on hold. I'd been going, going, going ever since I was little and Capernwray had been my last goal, my finale of school and everything I dreamed about. July, August and half of September went by. Literally everything that I had planned to do when I got back (which was not a ton) fell through and I was left with myself and I. And God. He woke me up in August to actually seeing and enjoying the brilliant plan he had for me at this time. To rest. There are many ways to rest. I rested by playing Christmas songs on the harp, reading His word, praying, going on walks, spending time with my family, and seeing friends. That still left a lot of time though after going through the list. It drove my brain crazy but it was good. I settled. And then....I got a job. And started a very Christian:) art school. And got another job. And started taking singing lessons for fun on top of piano lessons. While still playing the harp because I have 2 hour long events I play at (it's at a tea house!). In the past 2 months, God has helped me take each step. Slowly getting back into the life of being busy while still having time for Him. It's not always easy. But it reminds me of a song, David Crowder, "Waves of Mercy".

Every step I take 

I take for you 

You make me move 

Jesus

Every step I take

 I take for you

Another step I've taken again is working on my audio drama from 2017. Right now it's in the works of adding sound effects. Tonight Dad came rushing into the office. "Who's screaming?" He demanded. Since I had been listening to different females horrifying screams for the past 3 minutes, I was surprised he hadn't burst in sooner. Great protection. 

Well, it's late. 9:30 p.m. is late for me. If I keep writing, I think this will turn into less sense than the mush it already is. And you know if I keep writing, I'll write something really dumb.

Hahaha, speaking of that... my boss had me label the dumpster broom and dust pan and she printed out on nice laminated labels - "dumbster". Notice the b instead of the p? Big difference. I had to think of something really sad at that moment or I would have burst out laughing. Though she would have probably thought it funny too...I don't know her that well. Goodnight!

Shine Your Light

    

    My grandma was recently relating to me her troubles with texts. She has a flip phone still so of course it takes a while compared to our modern I-phones but she is more able to cope with it. However, she was a little exasperated when I talked to her because someone had been asking her questions via text which she had taken a couple hours to think over before responding. 

    "What kind of questions?" I asked. 

    "Oh just everyday questions, but they threw me off guard," she laughed. 

    What she said didn't make sense. How could normal polite questions befuddle you? But then it got me thinking. I used to be that way. When I had a few precious contacts in my phone, I thought of a text as a letter, something to be considered on both sides when actually, a text is often used as a thought, sometimes even partial and flippant. You could be asking a question out of curiosity, mere politeness, a bridge to another question, etc. The receiver can make their answer calculated or quickly make up an answer that doesn't provide a ton of details. Ma Glo was slightly confused with the questions because she didn't know in what context to answer them. Were they actually caring - like, did they want to know her whole history of how her day was going? 

While Grandmas still have a full set of attention span brain cells (mostly), we are a generation of attention span deficiency - thought provoked, yes, but only for a second. I deal with this often myself as I jump from one thing to the next in rapid succession.  Messages often zip through our phones and computers constantly as we send out fragments of thoughts through the air to end up miles away. 

In 1986, the Telegraph UK magazine estimated we sent out – mainly by post, telephone and fax – around two and a half pages of newspaper each day. By 2007, this estimate had increased to six full newspapers thanks to email, digital photography, Twitter and social network sites. Twelve years later, Pintrest, Instagram, and Snapchat have all joined the ranks. How many newspapers does your brain give out now? I assume more than six. Unfortunately, no one has time to do the math. 

One site I visited showed a study in 2018 has calculated that on average, Americans send and receive about 94 text messages per day. To check out this interesting article, head to: https://www.textrequest.com/blog/how-many-texts-people-send-per-day/ While this is only in the text sphere, imagine how much information we give out between all our connections with the world. We need to be mindful that we are the light of the world according to Matthew 5:14. As candle bearers of God's flame, we have a very important responsibility to hold to the Word with truth. If we send messages or pictures that do not show the light of Christ then we are not being good stewards of the light He has entrusted in us. When we are solely focused on God alone, then He will be able to send out emanating powerful beams for others to see even through hardship. But if we are self-focused, his light will be faded for we are putting our own dusty filter over his purity. 

The devil tries to imitate Christ's light as warned in 2 Corinthians 11:14. Think of a tanning salon versus the sun. The sun is Christ. It warms the earth and us. Powerful and bright, it can hurt our skin if we're not careful. But it still is the sustainer of life on our planet. Without it, we would wither away. However, the tanning salon was made to copy the sun for the sole purpose of enhancing the UV radiation rays onto our skin. It does not cause life to grow. In fact, it roasts our skin to a rich shade of brown to look like we've been in the sun for our whole life. Over time, if a person continues to us tanning salons, it will lead to skin cancer, premature aging, eye damage, immune system suppression, etc. The devil takes something good like the sun's rays and twists them to work for his own devious purposes. People go to him for their "tan" because it works better and faster. But the consequences are not worth the risk. 

Out of the many texts, posts, stories, etc. that come from our creative brains, remember to take time to think this week. Are we allowing the devil to roast someone's heart, to cause anger or hurt through what we advocate for? At the same time, are we consciously mindful of how we demonstrate Jesus to others? Do we  need to reduce our overload of newspapers to others in order love sincerely? Let Jesus shine through you out of love, not obligation. 

“For to speak the truth, there are but few that care thus to spend their time, but choose rather to be speaking of things to no profit.” 
― John Bunyan, The Pilgrim's Progress

Splash of Summer

SO last time I wrote was getting back from New Zealand. And now it's been a little more than a month and a lot has happened. 3 weeks after I got back from NZ, my family headed to Iceland for 3 days then Scotland.

 Iceland was so crazy! Dad had booked tours for our two full days there - the first one was 8 hours long but the second one was 15 hours long. Most of it was spent in the 15 passenger van. But the parts where we got to stretch our legs and hike was beautiful! Glaciers, Icebergs, Waterfalls, you name it. Oh and did I mention Icelandic horses? Purest breed - they are not allowed back onto the island once they have left. No other horse breed has had the honor of stepping onto this cold viking land. Also, Iceland only has 300,000 people but shows off 10,000 waterfalls!

They took us up to the hills of Iceland and let us gallop around on their calm and gently horses of ice. 

Black sand beach made from rocks.

It was freezing and rainy at Diamond beach. 

Then 10 days in Scotland - where modern people live in a culture steeped full in legend and ruins. Our first stop was in Loch Lomond. Here we stayed in a castle backed by public gardens. We went on bike rides, explored the thriving plants, and created a haunted video starring us as the victims one dark night. After the castle, we drove to Edinburgh (pronounced Ed-in-burrow). We no longer each had a bedroom to ourself but instead slept on little beds and couches in a flat high above the city. We thoroughly enjoyed our time there! We didn't use a car but walked about 7 miles a day to the different sights and shops. After Edinburgh, we drove 2 hours to a beach and then to a little town called Lundie. Here we went on lots of walks and browsed antique stores. The last day, we went to the biggest grocery store we'd found in Scotland so far (about the size of a Safeway!) and found a huge gluten free aisle. They are so good with gluten freers here! All the cafes and restaurants have gluten free food and it's way better tasting than in America.

We hiked admist sheep till we reached mass amounts of heather.

This is the castle we stayed in! And yes, there was a tower room and a terrace on the roof and a spiral staircase and a dining room table that fit 18 people and chandeliers and sheep skins and everything you could want in a Scottish Castle.

Dress up at Scone Palace.

We were home for a full day before heading off to La Pine, Oregon to spend some much needed time with the cousins. We went to Crater Lake and took a boat ride to Wizard Island. My phone chartered off the wall ratings of how many "floors" we hiked in a reasonably small amount of miles. We dove into the icy water which felt so refreshing after the hot hike. The next day, we rented a giant paddle board at Twin Lakes and did a full out war of who could stay on the thing the longest with everyone else jumping on it and trying to out-balance each other. The last war was the most epic. Everyone got up and started (you weren't allowed to touch each other) but before it really got going, Dad just ran and swept everyone off in one fell swoop. Daaaaad! 




All in all, it's been a really good summer. Looking forward to some more hot days, berries and whipped cream, friends to laugh with, and hikes to walk on. Lets go. 

Our Paddle Boat

 Icelandic Scenery:

Ahem....unedited.

Whoops, rule of thirds disappeared in this fog.

Geyser.

Home. For. Good.

Last Saturday spent in Auckland scooting around town.

I'm home finally! This year has been crazy - the whole year at Capernwray went by so fast! I have learned so much: be it the academic side of writing 8 page bible studies to growing closer with God. Some ways of this is through multiple discussions per day with people who are actively striving to follow God as well as spending quiet times with God going over different incidents in the Bible as well as in my life. I also learned to get out of my comfort zone in multiple things from deep talks to speaking in front of schools about God. Relying on Him no matter what was really important - to have that indwelling of Christ consistently.

Remembrance back to Fiji ziplining upside down. Not pictured here are the poor orphans, the destitute shanties, and the places no tourist would think to enter. Helping in those places meant a heap more to me than being in the air for a minute. 

At the close, we have a big party dinner where everyone dresses up and does a dance for a certain theme the night before Graduation. My family group was randomly selected to do Greatest Showman! Leonie and I choreographed a super fun dance to the opening song. We had acrobats, bearded lady, tall man, fat lady, tatoo guy, muscle girl, lion, and more! Everyone did awesome:)

The end was hard to say goodbye. We'd all gotten so close to each other. We will always be friends though and there are already reunions being planned!

This semester was famous for injuries and relationships. So many people were taken to the hospital over the two terms. Good thing we're required to have insurance. Mitchell started the season off by dropping weights on his toes, followed by a concussion performed by Grass. Then Leonie dropped glass bowls and shards of glass cut open her hands. One bounce at a trampoline park brought Dylan down with a dislocated arm which Sadie preceded to copy! Finally to top it off, Jaedyn sprained her foot badly while playing smash face and got taken to the hospital in an ambulance. Any more? I probably missed a couple. Speaking of couples, this is quite a semester for that as well. About 30% of the students went back home with a new boyfriend or girlfriend. Every couple weeks, a new pair would pop up and everyone would add them to the growing list. Because we're from all over the place, it was interesting to see which countries matched up. One night, a kayaking trip turned into pretty much only couples going so a singles group was held in the homestead. After a fun devo, we were presented with a power point with multiple slides on ways to get out of our singleness. It was all a big joke and a big success. Half way through a phase of speed dating questions, one "couple" left. We cheered them out the door. So there you have it - our semester also grew a lot closer spiritually to God. It was so cool to see the hunger that arose for more of Him and less of ourselves. There were intentional conversations about questions or thoughts about the Bible outside of lectures, book group, family time, etc. where we dove into God's word already. In fact, injuries and relationships only increased our dependence on Him. 

I will miss New Zealand. It's roses and ripe lemon trees in winter continually remind me that even though it should be dark and cold, life still produces a harvest. No matter what low times should come, God will still make roses and lemons out of the mess if we surrender the dark and let in the light. 

3rd and Final Ministry Week in the Kiwi capital of the World where we served coffee in the rated best cafe in all NZ!

This ministry week has been amazing. We went to the Orchard church in Te Puke, NZ, which is the kiwi capital of the world. God has taught all 9 of us so much. In Bible in Schools, I taught on Perseverance and then various students implemented that important concept into the story of Paul and Silas for the kids. While we taught on perseverance, it was ironic that we actually were thrown into practicing perseverance ourselves by relying on God’s strength throughout the week. We would have fallen apart if we hadn’t persevered with God’s strength this week due to a number of incidents that happened. At the start of the week, we had Jaedyn and Brodie who both were pretty sick. We managed to do morning tea for oldies, Sunday school, college youth night, dismantled a kiwi orchard, and more. We were playing smash face with the youth for youth group on Friday night when Jaedyn’s foot decided to sprain/fracture itself. She was taken by ambulance to the hospital while the rest of us which had shrunk to five to carry on the night quickly readjusted ourselves and led games, worship, testimony, and swing dancing. Later on at about 11, we learned she was ok but has the crutches. Some new things for me that I experienced was being so close to such a bad injury and feeling helpless because you can’t take the pain again but you can turn to God and I really felt thankful that He can be there always. 

Another new thing was a Progressive dinner. The first house was appetizers, second house was main meal, and the third was dessert. I’d never heard of it before so it was really fun to try. The only stressful thing was a game that we played in which you start out with 5 clothespins and if you say yes or no or nod your head then you lose a clothespin to the person who made you say or do the taboo. I’m a very verbal empathetic to people talking so my talking was very stilted and my neck got stiff from not nodding at every word. The worst trap was I’d be talking and then they’d say, “really??” How do you answer to a question like that without saying yes or no or nodding the affirmative!? 
We also worked at the voted best cafe in New Zealand which was an amazing opportunity. They are Christians who got together a couple years ago and decided to start a cafe for the community. They love volunteers and do free pizza nights with about 200 people coming to that now. Also when you buy a cup of coffee, they donate part of the money so you’re actually buying clean water for folks in Cambodia.

Jaedyn (pictured above) and me cut up kiwis and bananas for smoothies and had the opportunity to serve coffees, yes!

A tea for FairHaven schools on a sprightly afternoon. 

GF Waffles topped with butterscotch syrup, walnuts, bananas, and cream at the Daily. This was the morning. Little did I know I'd be back 2 more times that day for more! (Not Waffles - other yummy goodness) 

 Our billet hosting Corina and I was super nice and I loved being in her home. We were only a 2 minute walk from the church and there were kiwi orchards all about the place. She made it so cozy to come back from busy days to a warm atmosphere of fire and tea and conversation.There was a piano there with vintage sheet music that we rummaged through. I played select Sound of Music songs while Corina sang. Good days. It's actually not quite cold for winter or rainy. We've had beautiful sunshine and short sleeves - a good old sixty degrees about every day. In the back yard of our billets Karen's house were mandarin, lemon, and persimmon trees ripe with fruit. So good!

Breakthrough

Operation 62T8M20TA1.....Decode in 3...2...1.... time's up! 62T8M20TA1 is unscrambled to become Matt. 28:16-20 - the great commission. Every year, Capernwray puts on an event called Breakthrough which is a giant event like a scavenger hunt game of sorts to reach a goal. It ends the night with the gospel message for the kids. This year, we had 12 different countries reaching a goal. Some students were station leaders at the countries while others chose to be guides for the kids. I wanted to be in the country of Egypt and I got put there thankfully along with Ryan and Kyra. All week long we worked on our station. We were the creepy "haunted house" station because the kids had to enter a dark maze with Ryan bonging a drum outside and turning on the smoke machine in the room. They had to decode a laminated hieroglyphics sheet which turned out to be Arabic. Then they'd come to the dark corner where I stood and I'd stand out from the wall suddenly. I got many comments and gasps of "oh I thought that was a manican, statue, etc Nope I 'm real people! The thing that got people was the eyelashes I had on. I had massive fake eyelashes that glued on. Never had fake eyelashes on but the two nights of breakthrough, I spent 8 hours each day from 3 o’clock to 11 wearing those things! After I opened the door to the coffin, they entered the dark chamber to be scared by Kyra in a very scary mummy costume! The first night was middle schoolers coming through and we made 4 kids cry! The second night was high schoolers and we made only one kid cry and another fall to the floor in shock from the mummy. During the two nights, I was high fived and called creepy lady and pretty lady (It was the fake eyelashes). Acting the stoic statue meant I got some interesting comments like, "we should tickle her to see if she laughs." Hmmmmmm no. Typical Kiwi kids. Sunday, we had to take all the stations we had built all week down in 3 hours. Crazy! The students had church service at Capernwray but 5 of us including me had ministry teaching Sunday school. So we got to skip one hour of clean up. Joy drank her morning tea at church very slowly so we'd be late. Oh Joy!

Egyptian Costume - Hair done thanks to Sarah and makeup done by Kyra the mummy. 

Cooking dinner on Saturday with a French cook. Meg the Canadian was making hot chocolate in our preparing space - she's the one in the touque (tuke) (canadian word for beanie). 

France all decorated (This is usually the student lounge)